x:
i biked past your house tonight and was hoping to visit but all lights were off so i kept moving on. i was just wandering the entire city, bike style. two hours later on the way back i went past again and still no light. you were maybe out having a blast somewhere. i was just floating around, getting all existential. strange night.

i don't have any best friends around this city anymore, which is lonely, sometimes. anyway, i just wanted to say that i hope you had a nice hiccup today and that you are my friend whose house i bike by and check the lights.

y:
this past week I have walked around and felt like I was not held accountable to anyone.

last night I was somewhere making some important and confusing mistakes.
Lately I have felt something further away from good, and it's made me interested in being surrounded by goodness, you are my friend who is full of it